the O P E R A: We Were Mothers Once, and Young

a medical group social, March y1980, Hershey, Pennsylvania " 12 babies ? ! What made her stop ? How did she stop having babies ? " Dr Richard Noyae, Chief. "Yeah, a dozen. Wuuull, I guess, aaah, ah, ... ... a hysterectomy stopped her, " Herod Edinsmaier = re I Am Snide = first year - slacker / - laze. And ... ... to be FIRED after only two ( of four total ) resident years' worth. Per Dr Shark, Next Chief. " A hysterectomy ? Fuck. What stopped her POKING Sperm Source was ... ... a M E R C I F U L SURGEON ! " Dr Noyae.

Yeah, the Middle America at where a Patriarch I used to know, with 12 children birthed out of one rurally isolated and 14 times' pregnant - woman ( from his Gilead - style patriarch's pokings of her ), merely COMMANDED Gilead - style within the springtime of y1976, a coerced / a forced / an ENTRAPPED mawwiage of his son TO ... ... that son's similarly poked handmaid = me. Proposal of mawwiage to ME ? = Fuck. T R U L Y ... ... what was it THEN ? ... ... IT was a D E S P O T I C DICTUM. A MOTHER - FUCKING. Proposal of mawwiage to ME ? = Ha. T R U L Y ... ... what was it THEN ? ... ... IT was a D E S P O T I C DICTUM. ENTRAPPED = Ofherod = by PATRIARCHY, its religioning / its ONE exalted spermatozoon 48 YEARS AGO ... ... NOW = this y2024 - year = F O R C E D / COERCED mawwiaging ... ... S A M E AS W O R L D W I D E: My ex - father - in - law* BEFORE there was A Thing " Legal " had ALREADY laid CLAIM TO the babe withIN .MY. uterus = TO .MY. preg...

“Years ago, still small, I lost my mother. Everyone wept around me, but I grieved in silence, Ignorant that to relieve sorrow, a flood of tears must fall.” --- Thich Nhat Hanh, Viet Nam Ms. Carlotta Klutz telephoned to say she was sorry about how things had turned out up at the Capitol Building after all and that “considering” how I felt about matters, what in the hell was I going to do? No, she didn’t use the word ‘hell’; only I use that genre of expletive in my lexicon from time to time. Likely … as well, within the spate of transactions of business matters such as with ‘my case’ I spake such. A bit more lately, too, than when my Boys were tiny, I must say! Not the language police but Zane himself had cured me –– if I had needed curing from offensive mouth – momism disease –– when he was just three and Mirzah newly suckling at my left breast. “Shit, I pissed all over myself!” came back out of the itty – bitty bathroom at the two of us and at one – year – old Jesse ...